Happy List! – April 20, 2011

Things that make me happy… RIGHT NOW!

100 posts!

Talk about follow through! The post you are currently reading is Road to Happy’s 100th! I can hardly believe it. I’m notorious for having big ideas… maybe even starting them… but to be this far down the road is definitely an accomplishment. Some days are harder than others, but to be able to pick out a few things each day that have made that one day a little brighter, no matter how small, has been a blessing. Thanks to those who read, comment, pass along and provide other support in my life.

Having an argument

So that doesn’t really sound happy, does it? Truth be told, I’ve never been one to argue. Sure, I get mad. Steaming mad. Crazy cursing like a sailor mad. BUT I rarely ever voice it. If I try, it usually results in automatic tears. I guess I’ve always been scared to hurt someone with my words because I have seen too much of it. I’ve been hurt beyond hurt; I never want anyone else to feel that way. Instead, I suffer silently and always manage to turn it back around on myself. Festering is never a good thing, and I have, more than once, let things pile up so much emotionally that it eventually only took a very small straw to break the camel’s back and send me packing. Literally.

Today, words were said. Angry words.

No one died.

Surprise!

There were some very good take-aways from this morning from hell. How can others know what you need unless you voice it? I guess I’ve always felt very strongly about doing everything on my own that I’ve forced myself into a lifestyle and mindset of being alone. Don’t rely on anyone because they will always let you down or leave you behind. Don’t talk about what you need and what you want because if it’s different than what they need or what they want, it’s over. They’re gone. Put others before yourself, always.

The thing is, I deserve to be happy too.

Treats from Mom

Mom sent us homemade Easter eggs. Chocolate covered peanut butter and dark chocolate covered coconut, to be exact. Heaven with a postmark.

Air those grievances, and keep thinking of the things that make YOU smile! 🙂

~Jen

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~ by sillyauntjen on April 20, 2011.

One Response to “Happy List! – April 20, 2011”

  1. I feel you on the internalizing of anger, and the insta-tears every time you try to voice them. Sounds like my same exact problem. I’m glad you faced your problem head-on!

    Happy thing today is virtual easter-egg hunting. Long story, don’t ask XD

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